hey yo!=)
i really think i'm getting used to posting^^
it makes me feel better,
just like writing my diary;)
hahas,
have to prepare for a book talk for tmr...T.T
argh!so much hmwrk!>.<
i think i'm just exaggerating,
LOL
i just don't have the urge or feel~ling to do^^
hahas,
bet some of you can identify with me yeah;D
that word to describe it is 'sian'...
ahhh...
no!no!no!
i must have a breakthrough in this area!!!:D
i MUST have discipline!!!
yeah!
going straight to it once i finish this post(:
hehe
today was like any other school days,
had the same lessons...
hmmm...but i had a mtg for cca after school,
thats an interesting addition?:O
LOL
tmr i'll have to stay back after school for drama enrichment>.<
hope we'll have fun!=)
hahas
argh!
i have to report to school at 8pm for duty...
its like practically the same timing...sobb...
no extra slp T.T
i still have to wake up the same time as always~
ahhh, but gives me some time alone on the way to school,
mwahahaha~!;D
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recently
i've really been thinking about my 3 sheep...
am i mtg their needs?
am i a good shepherd?
i'm kind of upset la...
who wouldn't really?
its really a feeling of...'argh!'
i think its really natural to feel that way,
"my dearest SHEEP!why why why???"
questions like that used to fill my mind then(:
can identify?:O
dissapointment,sadness etc.
......................so.......................
ALL THE MORE I AM CONVICTED TO DISCIPLE THEM!
ALL THE MORE I AM GOING TO CONQUER THIS CHALLENGE!
ALL THE MORE I AM GOING TO GO THE EXTRA MILE!
ALL THE MORE I HAVE TO STEP OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE!
ALL THE MORE I HAVE TO KEEP GROWING AND PERSERVERING!!!
ALL THE MORE MY HEART HAS TO BURN!
ALL THE MORE I HAVE TO MAKE THE EFFORT!
ALL THE MORE I MUST HAVE THE BURDEN AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!!
ALL THE MORE ALL THE MORE ALL THE MORE MY LIFE HAS TO BE ALIGNED WITH GOD!!!
YEAH!!!
this is a challenge that God has placed in my life to help me & my sheep to grow,
and i really believe that whole-heartedly(:
man, i seriously have to do something about it...
the truth is...
even though i knew that this was a challenge i have to face...
after some time i felt useless,
i felt sometimes just to give up T.T
now as i reflect upon my life,
why was i like that???
hahas,
i shouldn't place hope in my sheep but God!:D
right now,
i'm holding my hopes in God(:
letting go my fears and worries to God,
hehe
patience and confidence...
hmmm?
talk + no action = nothing
yupps,
i'm held accountable for my life
so i'm going to seek God tonight with my whole life,heart,mind,soul,strength!;D
one day,
my sheep are going to be shepherds and committed true disciples!
i really believe,
i believe, not that i can do anything but God can do something(:
hahas,
i have to have a breakthrough in many areas of my life...
lets see,
now that my spirit is lifted
let me share my joy with all of you!:D
hehe
feel it?;)*wink*
LOL
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vision?
to lead a group of people whose hearts will be burning passionately for God!!!;D
people far crazy than soccer fans!
hmmm, maybe crazy but still in their right of mind?
HAHA^^contridicting LOL
but yeah!
preaching the word to those and each day,
our number growing
when problems and challenges come,
we'll face them head on together!!!:D
the way i put it sounds simple but i know it isn't^^
hahas,
but with God...it is!
motivated!!!woo~hoo~!(:
have to go le,
bye bye!
luv ya all lots!=)
♥ 
bee ting
January 2009